'blank TV..... nothing to see.'

... i thought it was a good title. my bad. it covers every base................ sometimes there is just nothing. it's vlog for crying out loud.......... short version this week and it started on Friday. i've have multiplied without a calculator, subtracted without taking off my shoes .... math, and had a class about rocket science accidentally.

411 update:
did you know the moon landing was on my birthday. i'm such a lunar child......

a fork..............

number of friends.............

I have 11 friends on facebook and one..... just one... following my blog. Now...... how should I weigh this. Should I do a 'wow....... you are such a loser' . Or.......... 'I'm good'. The smaller my world is the less complicated it seems to be. I moved to the middle of nowhere to prove a point. OK...... where I moved is where I grew up.... no bigger challenge here. Really. However, I've started playing golf with someone I graduated with (who stopped talking to me because I forgot I was in her wedding.....) who has a lesbo sister that plays with us. I love this planet. It's the size of a pea.

This is not really about the number of friends ones have but finding friends when you least expected it. It gets even weirder but I won't bore you with the details .... but the planet is now officially smaller than a pea.

It's hard to pay attention to the world around you when you have kids, pets, job, work release programs, etc. Shit gets passed me.... and I play catch up. Do you? Do somethings in your life get run over.... didn't even notice the speed bump.

coffee tables............

I find the little piece of furniture.... if you have one..... a lot of people don't, but if you do.... is like sneak peek into someones world. This is an older photo cleaned up a bit... was having guests. All of the seating pillow are under the table. I eat here.... I write here..... use laptop.... play cards/games... dance on (it's well made... I made it).... let Nicky my short legged mutt stand tall. This table has soooooo many functions. But....... to some its a statement. These are some of the important and things that mean a lot to me. I however don't want the 'good things' fucked up. Coffee table..... so 50's in its purpose. One of my favorite is movies ' Far From Heaven'..... basically for the way it was filmed. Same for 'American Beauty'.... this one is far and above genius and one of my favorites. Sorry... where was I.

I'm a Cancer and my home is my heart..... each chamber connects to the next. But obviously my heart beats to a different drummer. Are you one of the people that when guest come over you want to show or sometime the guests wants to see 'the rest of the house'......... WHAT the fuck is that all about. You either want to show someone who you are or your guests are casing the place. I have never understood this. I have been on many many many house tours and I've learned a lot but it's not something I asked for. Personal taste NEVER factors in but it should . I let go of this years ago.

But who am I to judge......... I don't.

gusus..... it's pronounced goo seuss

(I'm fine with burning in hell)

coming up for air..........

As you can see I haven't posted a thing since January.... nobody reads this anyway but I've had a few beers....... not tequila and I feel like typing I was reading Rockets last post and it got me thinking about how antisocial I am. I bailed on the bang last August and it's been hell to get anyone to talk to me since and I'm OK with that.... sometimes people see only what they want to see. No one can see what I see and a huge divide is born. I basically like people.... but it's in phases. I'm sensitive sometimes but most of the time I give just as good as I get. I suppose we could call me seasonal........ spring is my fav. Things start to grow and so do I. The other three are invisible. I used to love fall...... the colors are amazing. That was not invisible but it didn't change my core.... spring however is different. I plant stuff.... I paint things.

Off topic........ Rockrock. I have a something we could call a couch. I live in Texas and we play golf on Wednesday.

I have lost friends...... the take a fuckin' hike bunch. Friends don't do this........ OK......... some do. But real ones don't... the ones you've known for years. This instant understanding of another person is such a myth........ it's worst than poop in your Nikes. I've got a gut feeling........ right place right time..... two fucking miss placed souls.' I personally don't prescribe to this. It takes time to know someone.

Love the lust phase......... endorphins running amok. You become a cat person.... you love seafood. I don't do this crap anymore because a hate seafood. I'm not sure I'm a lesbo. I think this is a myth too...... does VaGina really smell like fish? Yes...... I named mine. I've been thinking about a tee shirt....... "I'm VaGina and you are?"

I've been playing this thing Rockets turned me on to. It's this Mafia thing on facecliffnote's. I missed my calling. What I could do with a firecracker and a tampon.

What else can I unload tonite with out reloading? I quit drinking for 10 months...... the wagon had a flat obviously................

g

over and out..........

I mean it this time.........

15 minutes........

EVERYONE gets their 15 minutes at some point in their life. it may not be on a super-uber stage but they get 15 minutes. i have had many 15 minutes in my life..... i bet i have at least 3 maybe 4 hours if i do the math. point taken...... but fame in one's mind should count.

milestones...... that is another subjective topic. i don't think i have ever reached one.... much to fluid. when in doubt..... wiki. 'wiki wiki ya ya mama...... me your lady marmalard.'

OT...... why why why am i not a muti-thousand-air? i am NOT a greedy person. if i feel like i need therapy... i want to pay. they have to listen to all my crap BUT..... i shoulda been a therapist.... ask any of my friend. i give the best advice. really.......

really really OT..... a friend of mine owns a relax the back store. trust me..... i'm golden. i sleep in heaven if there is such a place..... it's sweden and they are missing an angel. which brings me back to my point.

not even in the ballpark.... this 'blog' is just for me. it's like typing to myself and no one trips over it.... ever. everyone lies......... so sez 'House'.... love this show. i would marry Hugh Laurie.... and we could adopt. dream ends here. i'm only selling my gold star to the highest bidder.

i'm on hold....... see if you call a crisis line and hurt their feelings......... not a smart move f.y.i.... now you really feel like crap.

where were we................. oh my whopper 15 minutes......my 915 seconds.